Sunday, March 21, 2010 . 2:16 PM

all e fault is on me, all e care is for him.

im really really disappointed with U.
u always hurt me again n agian.
u never now hw hurt it was..
u'll only care for him..asking hw his work etc.
but u'll never ask me..
i duno why..
my work isnt impt..? or im a useless person in ur hrt..?
when u need help..need someone to take e blame..
i'll always be e first u think of.
tis is nt e first time..is been repeated again n again.
sometimes i really think im really silly to care for u so much.
i tried my best to give u n dad e best
i did wtever thing i can..i gave all my concern.
but wt i get in return..? hurt..?
i really envy him.
he live his own life..
he don have to think for others and yet all e care will go to him.
i always put them above anything
but e care never come..never never come.
am i really asking too much..?
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okies. enuff for today..
hmmm.

i duno hw long must i wait to see my luck coming back.
i crushed my car last mth..and $650 gone for NOTHING.
i mislooked my fines and instead of paying $50..i got to pay $230 now.
during cny..instead of saving all my ang bao to my bank.
i end up losing $250+ in gamble.
n nw, my blackberry went insane..n is driving me crazy too.
within 3 mths..all e suayness run toward me.
how am i going to convince myself tt tis yr gonna be a gd yr.
zzz

i supposed to be =) ytd..
but after knowing abt sth..
my mood totally gone..
i start to think negatively
and i seriously don like tis feeling.
to be honest..im so afraid of tis feeling
it really affect me a lot.
it once hurt me really really hard & i don wish to have it again.

..if i could read ur hrt.
hmmm.