sunday
170808

why did u quit ur job?"

"where are u working now?"

Everytime when i heard these two q..i felt v.sian
im lazy to ans..and i don feel like answering.
I will say everything now..
due to my english..it might be diff for u to understand
cos i told tyas onced..and she don really understand
H A a a a a

my ex-boss gt financial problem
is either i quit or i stay to gain experience wout any salary
and i choose to quit
NOT cos of e salary..but cos of my mum
when i was discussing about this with mum
she told me tt..her eye start to pain again
she had her right eye operated last yr oct
and now..her left eye start to have the same problem as her right eye
so..i decided to quit my job and start to help her zhi cha business
as time goes by..im getting more n more stress
imagine doing sth tt u don like everyday..
and forgetting things u have learned for 3yrs
will u feel stress..?
i noe i shouldnt complain since i agree to come in e first place
but think again..her eye need to get operate on nov..
she need time to recover
and by e time she fully recover..is already 2009
i cant waste my future here & i don like e life i having nw
work n work everyday..no time for friends..no time for dad
to be truth..i hate this business long ago
cos of this business..we could hardly have time for e whole family eating together
and she old nw..she shouldnt kept working wout resting
after much thinking..i decided to ask her close down the shop
cos of this matter..we kept quarrel over n over again
and the quarrel got more n more worse each time
and today..i totally lose my temper
i recalled every words i said to her..
i know how much i had hurt her..
but i gt no choice
everytime after our quarrel..i will feel bad for making her feel guilty
cos i kept saying things tt make her feel guilty
today is e worse..i kept showing attitude to her since afternoon
she say tt i have changed
and i told her..she e one who caused it
i noe i have changed..
in e past..i'll control myself..and listen quietly whenever she nag at me
but now..when she start to nag..i'll just talk back to her
i kept losing my temper on her..
i used to hold her when we walk..but now..
i find tt..i always walking infront of her..leaving her walking behind me
i used to remind her to put her eye med everyday..
but now..i always forgot to remind her
i've changed..i no longer care for her like before
i been thinking these few nites
wondering why i don care for her now
and i realized is all cos of our quarrel
i been repeating my sentence over n over again
i told her to close down..and i will work hard and earn $ for her
i told her to rest till her eye fully recover
i told her tt tis business isnt worth doing it..it need a lots of time and work
she old..i don wish to see her work everyday wout enjoying her life

and what she replied mi was.. "tml u don drive me..u go find a job..k"
whenever she say tis to me..i got more pek chk
cos she noe clearly tt tis method is nt going to work
and she still kept telling me the same thing
whenever i heard tis from her..i got more angry
cos is really rubbish
she cant even c clearly every morning..and now she say she wan to drive

no matter hw much i care for her..she just turned it down again n again
and i really got sick of it..and i guess tis is e reason tt made mi changed
these few days..i find tt other than e shop matter..i really gt nth to tok to her anymore

when i was in my rm just nw..she came in to cheer me up..
and today morning..she went to buy bread for me
she a hot temper person..
but i guess she noe im really stress..no matter hw i show my attitude to her or wt
she just take it..and never scolded me
in e past..she will just explode anytime
e smile..e effort she put in trying to cheer me up made mi really hurt
i don wish to treat her tis way..but i really duno wt can i do to make it better

No matter wt i said..she just don understand
she say im stubborn..but i guess she more stubborn as me
imagine i been telling her abt these one mths ago..
and till now she still didnt do anything abt it
as long as this problem remain..i guess e distance btw me n her will be more n more far apart

and i didnt regret leaving my boss..
to me now..he nt a gd boss
he promise to pay me before aug
till now..i still receive nth from him
d.fcuk

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