Wednesday, January 23, 2008 . 1:59 AM
been rushing my iscg these few wks..and im so tired tt i feel like giving up
to be truth, im not those type tt will give up easily...
even i noe is impossible.. i'll still try until i c a end in it
im really tired..tired of everything
i wan to do well for my iscg..
but..i noe i cant fully put my hrt into it
cos... i still cant get over some feeling...
i tried v.hard nt to think abt it anymore
but i reali cant stop my mind from thinking
i noe v.clearly tt..if i don get e pain out of me..
i'll never b able to put in all my hrt into my work
n i'll nt be able to do well for it.
but is really hard to get rid of some pain..
i told myself..i'll be grad in 4mths time...i cant give up nw
if nt those effort tt i put in for e past 2yrs will b gone
n when i think of those support from friends..i reali don wish to give up
but is reali painful to get so stress everyday..
sch work, family n some personal stuff is stressing mi every single day
sometimes i also duno hw i survive until nw....
i should have admitted to IMH long ago
maybe u guys will think all these is normal..everyone will have it
but i must say tt..is nt so simple as wt u think
Been struggling over some feeling for the past few wks
is really tiring..really...
i tot i will never drop my tear so easily
but these few wks..i realised im wrong
im so weak..i can just drop my tear so easily
Nw..just a small problem is enuff to make mi fall hard
isnt it funny.
Acceptance is nt a passive experience. It require courage, tremendous courage, to acc e things tt cannot change, to let go of e pain, to trust e healing will eventually come & to have a desire to rejoin life again.
to be truth, im not those type tt will give up easily...
even i noe is impossible.. i'll still try until i c a end in it
im really tired..tired of everything
i wan to do well for my iscg..
but..i noe i cant fully put my hrt into it
cos... i still cant get over some feeling...
i tried v.hard nt to think abt it anymore
but i reali cant stop my mind from thinking
i noe v.clearly tt..if i don get e pain out of me..
i'll never b able to put in all my hrt into my work
n i'll nt be able to do well for it.
but is really hard to get rid of some pain..
i told myself..i'll be grad in 4mths time...i cant give up nw
if nt those effort tt i put in for e past 2yrs will b gone
n when i think of those support from friends..i reali don wish to give up
but is reali painful to get so stress everyday..
sch work, family n some personal stuff is stressing mi every single day
sometimes i also duno hw i survive until nw....
i should have admitted to IMH long ago
maybe u guys will think all these is normal..everyone will have it
but i must say tt..is nt so simple as wt u think
Been struggling over some feeling for the past few wks
is really tiring..really...
i tot i will never drop my tear so easily
but these few wks..i realised im wrong
im so weak..i can just drop my tear so easily
Nw..just a small problem is enuff to make mi fall hard
isnt it funny.
Acceptance is nt a passive experience. It require courage, tremendous courage, to acc e things tt cannot change, to let go of e pain, to trust e healing will eventually come & to have a desire to rejoin life again.